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mar29.07

 have you ever just wished with all your heart for things to just rewind, undo, delete, backspace, fragments your life?

thats what i felt,

today.

&& i'd only be lying to myself if i were to say that it DIDNT hurt, and that i DIDNT cry.

i could blame myself --seing as though i am the one causing myself the pain/drama/heartache— but i wont cause im

a self-righetous idiot

who'll in the end will never really get "it".

lately my mind has been elsewhere. im making rash, unme-like decisions and its really starting to affect me & my surroundings. doing things i know i shouldnt be doing;  in fact questioning my motives as im doing them. yet dont feel the need to stop myself only because i HONESTLY dont care ...anymore.

oy.

im not even making any sense.

gnite.

-baby